Abandoned Ang hirap ng walang ama't ina... lalo na kung ang
kasama mo lang ay ang kapid mong magkakabedsore na kakahiga..
10:30 ako natulog.. 1:30 gising na naman ako.. badtrip kasi tong
kapatid ko... siniksik ako sa kama.. may isa pa naman oh! kakainis!
at ngayon 5:00AM na inaantok na ako.. gusto ko manood ng mr&mrs smith
sana may mahatak ako tom.. i need a life.. ehehe... nagugutom na ako
haaaaaaaaaay... starting today.. i promised myself na hindi na muna
ako mamomroblema.. =] yun lang.. *bow* -=eMuleee=-
wala lang.. Kahapon ko pa dapat niblog toh sinolo na naman ng
kapatid ko yung pc..haaaaaay anyway kahapon aga ko nagising 4:00 AM
ayon.. pag online ko wala pa din yung hinihintay ko na page badtrip!
sobrang kabado pa din.. ano ba toh.. at natapos ko na ang resume ko!
yehey! dahil mukhang matatagalan pa yung hinihintay ko.. magwowork
muna ako.. kahit ayaw ko sana mag callgirl..mukhang ganon ang
bagsak ko.. kelan pa naging skill ang GOOD COMMAND OF THE ENGLISH
LANGUAGE... nakakainis kahit ayaw ko ilagay nilagay ko na din yun daw
eh sabi ng friend ko! WISH ME LUCK! ayaw ko na maging BUM!
*** Aga aga... may nilalang na.. tinopak.. binasted ko daw
cya.. halleur? di naman nanligaw.. ano kaya yon.. ewan ko labo na talaga
ng mundo ngayon... tsk tsk.. eh basta ako.. wala lang single.. LOL
*** F na F ako sa aking morning ritual na mag text ng kaartehan
every morning.. only to find out na wala na pala ako load..wow! bum na wala
pang pera... haaaaay.. i really need to find a good paying job (ahahaha as if!)
*** Nakausap ko si niño rico nerida ang aking boyfriend pag 75 yrs
old na kami.. usapan namin yon kasi by that time eh di na cya nagchichiks...
Humanda sa akin tong white person na toh.. pag natuloy talaga ako
magboxing..di uubra taek nya sa akin.. suntukan na lang kami..
ehehehe pero masaya naman habang kausap ko cya.. kulitan ever just
like the old days.. parang walang nangyari wahehehehe.. pls don't get
me wront..sabi nga ni GIAN past is past! wahehehe kinalimutan ko na lahat
ng nangyari.. all the pain.. ahahaha yuck.. joke lang.Kinulit kulit nya
ako mag dl ng newest version ng YM kala ko naman kung ano.paparinig lang
pala nya yung galing paa nyang boses.. tsk tsk.. with matching webcam kala mo
naman mabibighani nya ulet ako sa katawan nya.. hindi kaya! hmpff bagong
gupit pa amp!.. at take note kung puntahan ako sa bahay 2am/3am...
wow angas talaga tumakas pa ako dati palabas para lang puntahan cya sa
kanyang pinakamamahal na revo... sus talaga... eh after hi hello.. nilayasan
ko din.. malakas pa naman makaramdam nanay ko.tsk tsk ako pa daw masama
wag daw kasi ako tumakas.haaaay pasaway talaga ang campus heartthrob
na epal na yon ano! ehehe anyway yun na yung last dahil after ng pag uusap
namin tumunganga na naman ako forever and ever hanggang sa makatulog..
sa sobrang anxiety naalala na hindi pala ako na breakfast lang pala kinain
ko kahapon.. ehehe kaya pala tomgutz na ako.. dahil jan..babooooooo at
akoy magluluto na ng makakain.... =p QUESTION: pano ba nagiging colorful
yung sa friendster? lol sorry di na ako updated... -=eMuleee=-
Intimacy Vs Isolation Ive been studying this psychosocial theory since i was in
2nd year college.. pero parang nagyon ko lang ata narerealize yung worth
nito.. ngayon na graduate na ako.. ehehehe... according to erik erickson
20-45 years old people are actually undergoing a struggle between being
intimate with someone or being isolated.. wahehehe.. Please dont take it
literally... ibigsabihin ng intimacy sa kanyang theory.. is sharing your
life with someone very special.. lam mu yon? going steady.. and someday
have a family of your own.sabi din nya na if ever na hindi mo magawa ang
bagay na ito.. you'll be developing ISOLATION..How sad?! kakainis... a
friend of mine texted me last week... she was inviting me to go out..
but then i refused.. as much as i want to unwind.. i cant halleur? aral pa ako...
wala na nga akong buhay eh... ehehe... anyway going back to her msg.. she
told me that she's very sad cyempre ang lola naman tanong.. she's sad daw
kasi she's turning 23 without someone she could call HER OWN..emote to the
highest level si lola.. maganda naman talaga cya.. and i think wala nga cya
karapatan mag emote ng ganon...law student sa ateneo.. maganda.. maputi,
mayaman talaga...But then.. nararamdaman pa din nya yung sadness brought
about by being SINGLE! well mejo affected na ako sa kalungkutan
nya at parang nagkakaroon na ng counter-transference sa akin yung
nararamdaman nya... ehehe.. pero cyempre deny to death ako... proud
na proud akong sinabi sa kanya "MASAYA NAMAN MAGING SINGLE AH!" with
matching quote pa yon take note! ehehehe sabi nya.. "i dont wanna be
single anymore.. pagod na ako." wow... para nya akong sinaksak sa puso
tulo ang dugo..patay buhay.. (ano ba next dun sa song na yon.. ehehe)
eh ayon.. kung cya nga nararamdaman yon pano pa kaya ako?! ako na isang
hamak na walang maipagmamalaki kung hindi ang aking katalinuhang taglay...
ahahahha joke... ayaw ko naman cyempre gatungan yung nararamdaman nyang
sadness.. gusto ko man cya samahan..wala ko magagawa... haaaaaaaaay tao
din ako at 22 na din ako.. ehehe..I think i've already accomplished "something"
for my age... sabi ko nga sa mom ko dapat nagpaparty sila nung 20th
birthday ko..isipin mo naman.. dami dami sa mga kabatch ko ang tuluyan
ng naging mommy..well i have nothing against them... to be honest
nakakainggit nga sila eh..may baby na..although may baby damulag
na kami dito sa bahay ang nagpapasaya sa akin twing ako ay malungkot..
ehehe.. nakagraduate ako with flying ewan.. lolx... ehehehehehe..di ba?
dapat talaga nagbunyi sila.Haaaaaaaaaaaaay... ngayon.. magwowork na ako...
may mameet naman kaya ako
na matino sa workplace? parang mga namemeet ko recently..either bading,
may gf, may asawa na, or single na walang kwenta..getch? before i end..
i just want to share a convesation na sobrang nag paisip sa akin..
kanina lang ito kausap ko ang isang FILAM 20 years old na nameet ko
sa skul.. kafal ng mukha 2nd year pa lang kung awayin ako ganun ganun
na lang....eto yung conversation:
FILAM: "vakit di mo akow tinetext."
(Please try to imagine na lang.. yung trying hard magtagalog.
EM: "Eh bat naman kita itetext? sino ka ba ha?"
FILAM: "i always text you first.. why are you like that?"
EM: "Bakit ano ba dapat."
FILAM: "i know you miss me.. ako lang ba namimiss mo?"
EM: "Whatever! hindi kita itetext!"
FILAM: "Eh di wag! arte mo!"
Em: ako pa maarte ha! kapal mo ah! sino ba nagsabi na itext mo ako!"
Hindi ko matanggap ngayon lang ako nasabihan ng maarte sa buong buhay ko.. kafal talaga
nakakainis! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.. anyway... kung cya lang! wag na! bwahehehehehehe...
Nakakapagod nga siguro maging single.. pero mas nakakapagod mag english pag cya kausap ko..
wahehehehehhe... ang hirap kaya noh.. sakit pa sa tenga....... ma isolate na kung ma isolate
LOL... o cya.. dito na lang muna.. BABOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! -=eMuleee=-
The board exam anxieties Can somebody give me valiums (diazepam)! wow tagal ko na pala hindi nagonline.. THANKS LAM! mwaah!
I just want to share my experiences before during and after the board exam.. haaaay siet talaga
havent felt this kind of anxiety before. I've been studying for months already for the licensure
examination. Countless sleepless nights... omg! kakainis talaga.. nagkasakit pa ako ng madaming beses
and ive been crying for no valid reason at all.. (well pwera lang kung valid talaga na maiyak ka
dahil sa kaba!).. dami dami ko na miss na movies.. ang dami dami kong namiss na labas... like
going to the beach.. and WOW... tag ulan na... kahit pool wala pa ako nasisilayan... I just wish
an its all worth it.. I have faith in the Lord that WE'LL ALL MAKE IT! Registered killer 2005..
EHEHEHE juk lang.. o cya dito na muna... i miss you all guyz. mwaaaaah!
Bored... sa sobrang pagkabored sa isang review session (imagine! 9 hours na
nakaupo at makinig sa lecturer). Na formulate ito ng 2 sa pinakamatatalinong
classmate ku.. eto at tungkol sa mga walang kwentang bf.. wahehehe TABI TABI PO..
MATAMAAM BUTI NG! ehehehe juk!
WALANG KWENTA ANG BF MO KUNG...
1. May kotse nga cya pero ikaw naman ang nagpapagas.
2. Asa isang school lang kayo pero mas madalas pa ang patak ng ulan kesa sa pagkikita nyo.
3. Magyayaya magdate pero ikaw ang pagbabayarin.
4. Pinapagselos mu na... DEADMA CUMLAUDE pa din cya! (badtrip to the highest level!)
5. Papaalam ka na may pupuntahan ka.. okay lang.. wala cyang pakelam.
6. Magpapaalam sau... pero kahit anong sabihin mo di din naman susunod..
7. Graduate ka na... asa 1st year pa din cya! (walang direksyon sa buhay wahehehe)
8. Pag papalit ka nya sa bola (IM A BALLER YOU KNOW?! whatever!)
9. Mas matagal pa cya naglalaro sa pc.. kesa kausap ka nya.
10. Gwapo nga.. hangin naman laman ng utak.. wahehehee ching!
Please pagnakikita na ang mga signs and symptoms na ito sa mga bf nyo...kindly ask yourself..
sino ba ang problema? ako o cya? ehehehe i strongly suggest na kung hindi cya magbabago..
magisip isip ka na.. the brain is put higher than the heart my dear... Think about it!
The One Real love is always fate.. it has been arranged before time... it is the most
meticulously prepared of coincidences... and fate of course, is simply a secular
term for the will of God, and coincidence for His grace...
from the book BOY MEETS GIRL by Joshua Harris
J-O-N-D-E-E "Finding the right person is very hard and
very wrong. It is best to be the right
person for the one you love and start from
there.You'll always end up disappointed
when you set standards and define
a "right person" for you...and don't rush
things coz somewhere somehow God is
preparing somebody for you."
Don't be in a hurry to get into a
relationship because you can never find
love if you insist that you are already into
it. Try to find time to really understand
your real feelings, to know who you really
are, and what you really want in a
relationship.
You're right, there's no such thing as a
perfect relationship, but there's a
compatible partnership that goes along
with it. If you already knew that you're too
big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't
give it a try. You'll probably break it and
pay for the damages you have made. If
you knew and felt that the relationship
will not last, don't go deeper into it.
You'll just suffer the consequences and
live like hell for the rest of your life. It's
really hard to say goodbye though, but
you can't make it any better by just
pretending you still have the same
feelings.
Try to let go and give yourself a chance
to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a
chance to grow and give your heart a
much needed attention. Then you will
find that you have made the right
Decision and you made it all by yourself.
We call it love when we can't leave
someone and see them crying as we try
to let go.We are wrong, it's just pity. We
call it love when we're too attached and
think that losing the one we love will
somehow make us weak and unable to
face the storms of life. We misunderstood;
it's just that we're too much dependent to
them.
We call it love when we give our whole
life to them, the wholeness of us and
imagined that if they leave, no one
would accept us and our past. We are
mistaken, its just insecurity. But no matter
what the definition is, the truth still
remains that love isn't something you can
buy or beg. It is real and existing. You
can't touch it but you can feel it in your
heart. You can't find it, but it will knock
before you when you least expect it to
come. It can make you the happiest soul
in heaven, but don't forget that it can
also make you the most miserable person
in the whole galaxy.
"When you lose someone... and you think
you were the one who loved most,
between the two of you... he lost more.
For someday you can love someone the
way that you loved him...But he will
never be loved again the way that you
did."
Words oF Wisdom from Alley Mcbeal "if you wanna end up with the right one, you've gotta make it happen
the best ones are always taken, if you don't steal them, you wont have them!"
when i woke up after my graduation, something very scary sinked in to my mind
i asked my self.. whats life after graduation? boards? then what after i pass the board exam? (naks positive dapat!)
whats my next game plan.
its so hard to shift from being a student to being a GRADUATE! No more next sem, no more next subject.. nobody will tell you what do.
after graduation, you will OFTEN here people ask you "ano plano mo?!" halleur? how i wish they would realize how much added anxiety they bring to us
Board exam is not just an exam for us to practice.. for me its more of an obligation, a task to finish. =[ Its as if i am not given any choice... I MUST PASS!
else.. i might as well die (true!) kaya PRAY FOR ME.. ehehe its so hard to meet expectations-- from my parents, relatives, schoolmates, friends, AND THE SCHOOL!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! =[ low frustration tolerance pa naman aku.. =[ But still i keep in mind God's promise on Psalms 23, and i know He will be with me. -=eMiLy=-
--Smile--
.Tamia.
Sometimes i sit at home and
wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned
Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and
just pretend love
Is not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they
wont see that
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord
know its killing me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is
ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la la
Laaaa
Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me
but then i
Realize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me, and so i go around
with my head
Up like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into
other things cuz
U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, lord
knows its killing
Me
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is
ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my
Face...on my face oooh
Its not easy (thing to do) sometimes its hard to (face the truth) its not the
life that i
Would choose but what else can i do if he dont love me no if he dont want me im
not about to
Sit around let myself go (gooooo)
[Chorus:]
So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is
ok im
Laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and
a smile on my
Face...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la,
la la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la
la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la
la, la la la
Laaaa ill keep singing la la la-la la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la
la, la la la
Laaaa
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